1. 哈工大的校庆日刚好和高考的时间是重合的。高考之前从来没想过报考的大学,结果最后阴差阳错的考了进去,从此就和这个名字结下了不解之缘。

  2. 工大在南方名气没有那么大。想起第一次听说这个学校,竟然小时候玩过的唯一收费网游《梦幻西游》里时认识的为数不多的网友之一告诉我的,那人刚高考,我那时刚上初中,小不懂事就问他想读哪里大学,他说他报了哈工大。

  3. 工大我最喜欢的地方就是“图书馆”,学校各个校区都只有一个图书馆。里面的书很多,特别是工科类的。缺点也就是人文社科类的图书太少了,不过时常逛逛总能找到一些好书,每次坐火车前都会去借几本。一校区图书馆自习的地方在大堂,晚上有些地方光线会不好。我有时会在新书阅览室自习,那里不能放书,所以人也比较少,座位比较多。

  4. 工大的有一所活动中心,其顶楼有几间破琴房,现在想起去活动中心,90%的时候我都是去琴房练琴的,虽然琴房琴很破,练琴的时候总会觉得很安心。后来活动中心翻修以后,一楼多了很多桌椅,大四的时候偶尔也会去那里看书自习写代码。

  5. 大学里最难忘的一学期其实是在台湾交流的一学期。也是那一学期让我跟资讯工程结下了缘,正因为有这一学期,才让我最后才去学了人机交互。毕竟学校的名声在那里,所以也有一些质量很高的交流活动。

  6. 大学里对我来说最有意义的课是大一的英语课,因为我在课上认识了很多优秀的人。哈工大优秀的人很多,但我交际面比较窄,所以很多这样的人都于我无关,在英语优班上课的时候,认识好些厉害的同学,他们后来也给我带来很多正面影响。

  7. 工大四川人比较少,但好在还是认识了几个四川朋友。北方人比较多,我班里一大半都是北方人。我在要离开工大的时候,终于迎来了实外的很多成(ke)熟(ai)的学弟学妹们。因为我刚到工大时,实外的人上下几届就我一个人,所以从这点来说还是很欣慰的。

  8. 工大由于地理位置比较偏僻,所以在校的时候各种机会很少。但是学校很好,特别是离开工大以后,发现学校的好名声给自己带来的帮助还是蛮大的。至少离开以后才意识到工大这个平台给我搭了很好的台阶。

  9. 学校的正心楼是自习的好地方。7楼,8楼的教室因为没有课,所以常常被长期占领,这里面有很多其实都不是工大的学生。

  10. 工大的学生宿舍具有悠久的历史,编号越小的宿舍年代越久远,比方说我住的是一公寓,它和二公寓就是哈工大最老的公寓了。学校的住宿条件感人,不过在宿舍人比较多,所以可以愉快玩耍看剧也算是宿舍的一个大优势了,可惜大学的时候太穷酸,不然一定就买台主机在宿舍。现在有了时间和主机,但是没有人一起玩。

  11. 工大在深圳和威海还有两个校区,因为深圳地方比较好,所以有很多年轻的老师都去了深圳。但是深圳目前还没有本科,所以如果读研的话,深研院也是个蛮不错的选择。

  12. 每年入春的时候,校园里都会开花,科技园的风景也是蛮不错的。到了冬天,第一场雪刚下过的时候,雪景还是相当漂亮的,但是每年雪水化的时候,会弄得满地都是泥。

  13. 其实工大的大部分学生不论男女,都是很务实很朴素的。一个学校真的能给学生一些气质上的影响,工科学校学生的气质一眼就能看出来。但是我还是希望教育能够不那么僵化,多一些活动,这样子出来的人才能更多元更阳光一些,不要大家都是这个样子。

  14. 说起来,听说换了校长以后,学校的活动已经多起来了,行政上冥顽不化的风气也开始变好。另一方面学校的工科排名也在噌的一下向上长(大概也是托了IT和互联网的福气)。希望百年校庆的时候能学校够办的更好,给我一个回去母校的理由。


非专业手绘一幅~大神轻喷 :
这星期赶上了高考和校庆
不禁感叹转眼这么多年就过去了
祝学校越办越好

欢迎学弟妹们报考:D

在我入院的那天,我就知道现代医学能力有限,进了医院,纵使医生尽了全力,生死也是一个概率而已。一步走错就回天乏力。当然,接近走投无路以后,魏则西确实选了一个不太靠谱的医院,而这一切的直接原因就是他在百度上搜索到了这家医院。

则西跟我大约同等年岁,同是癌症,同病相怜,治病之前就知生死未卜,对生死也是看的比常人透彻。死本身并不可恨,乃世间常态。可恨之处不在天灾,而是人祸。于是这件事刷爆了朋友圈,百度成了众矢之的。

互联网人往往了解百度,当然知道百度制度顽疾之深,也许也是因为百度卖吧一事,所以大家都把矛头指向了百度。但是少有互联网人了解医院的,这次百度固然有责任,但是绝对只是一枚小小的替罪羊而已。在背后导致整个事件的根本原因,是莆田黑心的医疗产业,以及政府对他们的放任。

生病这么长时间,跟医院打交道也不在少数。病友间也基本都知道,那些坑钱的私立医院是去不得的。在医院被谋财的病人不是一个两个,魏则西这样的人也不是偶然一个了。

至于公立医院,大家也早就知道,不是所有的公立医院都可以去的,特别是那些部属医院。生病的病友都会互相交流,在中国的这样一个信息不透明的环境下,病友间互相交流的信息都是第一手的可信资料,而许多这样的信息,我也是通过一同治病的病人所知道的。曾经的血友病吧,就是这样一个平台,那些假医院的信息都会在第一时间被删掉,而这样最后的一个个交流的平台被删掉,被莆田系医院的公关所占领,最后引起轩然大波也不是偶然。

莆田系这样的行为,不仅害了很多病人,也连同一些很良心的私立医院一同坏了名声,比如我之前提到的道培医院。

谷歌(Google)也曾经因为协助贩卖假药而被起诉,事件起源于2009年抓住的一名假药贩子,叫惠克特。他原本被判65年的监禁,但当他发现他能够作为揭露谷歌的关键人物而获取减刑的时候,他选择了和联邦调查局合作。

联邦调查局起初并不相信惠特克的供词,因为他指正谷歌帮助他并不只是偶然行为,他说,他在使用谷歌的 Adwords 的业务的时候,并没有视图隐藏自己的业务的非法性,可以合理推测,谷歌也在帮助其他类似的药贩子使用他们的广告业务出售药物。

但联邦调查局还是给了惠克特一个新的身份,他将以一家广告公司的 CEO 的身份作为卧底调查谷歌,他只能待在一间屋子里,所有的操作都是远程的,他所有的通话记录都会被录音,所有的往来邮件都会被记录。这一切,都可能会作为将来证据来起诉谷歌。

但随着惠克特一次又一次在谷歌的客服代表的帮助下,成功的把自己的非法网站发布到 Adwords 上时,联邦探员们也不得不相信了惠克特的供词。一位探员说,他们一直期望客服代表会拒绝他们的出价,但是最后总是事与愿违。这大概是他们“最特别”的一次调查,毕竟他们3个月就花了20万美元在非法谷歌广告上。

2011年8月,谷歌与政府和解,同意被处罚5亿美元。作为和解协议的一部分,谷歌承认它最早自2003年开始帮助加拿大的药店使用 Adwords,它知道美国人在通过它的广告买这些药,知道广告客户不要求处方就卖处方药,知道谷歌雇员主动地帮助广告客户来逃避谷歌自己的药业广告政策和第三方验证。

在那以后谷歌改变了自己的广告策略,规定所有打广告的人都必须使用第三方的认证,即美国药学委员会联合会(NASAD)的认证,并且取消了在线人工咨询。

这件事我记得很清楚,因为谷歌一直是我想去的公司,那件事对我价值观的影响很大,我那时候才明白,即便是“Don’t be evil”的谷歌,也是个利益为重的上市公司。联邦调查局(FBI)和美国药监局(FDA)都在揭露这件事情上起了重要的作用,甚至是在广大民众还未知的时候。谷歌在这个事件里的地位就好比于百度现在在中国的地位,至于调查局和药监局相当于什么,读者心里恐怕已经有数了。

我与则西同是生在中国,长在中国,我和他都是大学生,相似的经历注定了我和他接触到的环境是有诸多的共同点的。

则西信了百度,走错了第一步,则西完全相信了政府下的部队医院,走错了第二步。政府的小错在于没有及时监管百度的搜索结果,而大错在于居然放任莆田商人官商勾搭在一起干伤天害理之勾当。私立医院坑人钱财在中国已经快成了人尽皆知的秘密的了,这都没人管。想想都明白,大概政府就是莆田人家开的。

这么想起来,我与则西相比最大的幸运,竟然就是我生病的当时是在新加坡而不是在中国:我不用纠结哪所医院是莆田系医院,我不用担心被医院的医生过度治疗或是延误了最佳时机,我不用操心给医生送红包或是医院不愿意收治,甚至我不用纠结某些规定,而那些规定制定的时候可能只是为了某一位领导的个人利益甚至嗜好,或者一句拍脑门话。

写在这里的时候,刚好听到母亲看新闻说有联合调查组(国家网信办会同国家工商总局、国家卫生计生委)进驻百度公司,大概是事情闹大了需要人出面管事了,但是其实这样根本解决不了事情,只有大家都呼吁撤销莆田系医院的承包和行医资格,或是加强监管,才可能解决问题。

诚然,一个企业既然大了,比如百度,就应该承担一定社会责任,但是社会的维持主要还是政府的工作,企业监督本来就是政府的一部分工作,但是国有企业,比如部署医院的监督,普通人根本插不了手,这事情整个就是政府的失职。

中国新闻总是在说其他国家的不是,但无论是在新加坡还是台湾,医院都不可能猖狂到如此地步。明眼人都知道是有人谋了私利。

我总喜欢拿新加坡和台湾举例子,除去我生活过的原因,也因为这两个地区都是华人执政,与中国在文化和历史上有诸多共同点。新加坡政府虽是专制,但法制健全,监督体制完善,政府自上而下就很清廉。台湾推行民主,民众的声音很大,媒体自由,所以监督自下而上,总有人敢站出来提政府的不是。无论体制如何,经济发展如何,这些都不是政府执政不力的挡箭牌。

总有人说“最甜不过家乡水,最美不过家乡人。”在新加坡异国他乡,人生地不熟,生病了,竟成了幸事,岂不是个笑话?这真是一件可悲的笑话。

后记

韩愈说”文以载道”,文章总是为了表达某种观点,但却容易忽略事物的多面性。作此文的目的,也不是为了说服谁,而是希望更多的人能够思考更深层次的原因和问题。

文章的言辞可能激烈了些,我们的政府可能也没有那么不堪。但我总觉得,总得有人站出来说点什么,不可能一直谩骂百度,不可能一直谩骂莆田医院。无论在怎样高素质高教育水平的国家里,心术不正的人永远都是有的,为自己某钱财的人总是有的,连我自己都不敢说自己总是君子。但国家是什么,政府是什么?建立国家的基础是因为有大家互相形成了契约,政府是保证大家按契约行事,承担责任义务的同时也能享受权利。文中提到的 FBI 调查谷歌的例子,一方面说明即便谷歌也不是什么大圣人,另一方面也明确说明美国政府在对待这件事情上的立场。

放到我们这次来,百度的所作所为,大概和谷歌差别不大,然而中国政府在这件事情上的作为却是大相径庭,以至于莆田系医院在百度上的广告和搜索能够越来越壮大。而莆田系医院能够发展成这样,不知道有多少政府人员中饱私囊昧着良心干伤天害理的事情。

这么去指责政府,其实是因为我相信政府还有希望。如果没有希望,我也不会去指责了。“殤”这一字,除了表示在很年轻就去世以外,也表示为国捐躯之意。则西之殤,也是战士之殤,能够站出来发声音,就是战士做的事。当然我不是战士,不过我也希望自己能够站出来,偶尔不再做“沉默的大多数”。

—— 本文曾由“新加坡眼”转载,2016年05月03日

现在觉得很幸运的事情是我居然有几个学医的同学。有事儿没事儿也可以聊聊天,还能打听到医院的一些消息。也不知道还会在家里待多久的时间,一切都是未知数。大概确定的事情是,尽量还是回国看病,多少省些钱留条后路。
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这几个月来,经历了化疗,游走在生死的边缘。

可我仍然不敢说自己可以直面死亡了。

一直在想,人对死亡的恐惧,到底来源于什么。

从进化论的角度来看死亡这个问题。

一个物种,如果能够担心死亡,才能够不被世界所淘汰,否则的话,这样的物种可能先就灭绝了吧。

但是也有例外,那就是一个物种在已经延续了后代以后,死亡也许能够更好的帮助这个物种活下去,比如螳螂,比如大马哈鱼。这些物种在面对死亡的时候,大概会有一种无法抗拒的使命感在里面吧。

死亡就是一个无解的问题。

但是总有一些方法来看待死亡。当死神来敲门的时候,你只要大声的告诉他:”Not today“。这样就好了。

佛教也有一些很不错的观点,比方说,人生的”无常“,死亡的”无常“,以及死得必然性,无常说的就是一件事情进行的状态或者是生命的状态是不可以预测的,随时都可能继续或者停止。要明白,死是生得一部分,任何人都是无法避免死亡的。

中国传统的儒家对”生死之道“也有解释,”未知生,焉知死“,生死就是相依的。

癌症也是一个无解的问题。

我自己是一个科幻迷,多年前曾经看过一篇长篇科幻叫做《计算中的上帝》,里面虚构了外星物种,而所有的物种都会有癌症,包括了这些外星物种,然而,正是因为这些基因上的缺陷,最后所有的物种才能统一起来,成为”计算中的上帝“。这大概是一个比较完美的设定了。

面对死亡,有两个可能的选择。第一个是逃避它,不去想任何和死亡相关的问题,第二个选择是去面对它,去深入的了解死亡,了解死亡的本质,了解死亡的一切。

面对疾病的时候就难以这样从容了,但凡生物都会遭遇疾病,遇上严重的疾病,没有办法去逃避,只能去面对。疾病是无法避免的事情,这是大自然的一个事实。

所以,在面对死亡的时候,如果也有同样的态度:”是的,死亡是生命的一个部分“,那么我们也可以更加的从容去面对了。

癌症是所有疾病里最让人谈之色变的一种疾病,基本上伴随了人类的历史。随着医疗水平的不断的进步,其他疾病的发生越来越少,越来越多的人死于癌症。”Cancer“一个词,就像一个禁忌一样,大家尽量不去提它。

癌症就像一个黑洞一样,吸走了金钱,吸走了亲近的人的正常的生活。

我原本是不那么害怕死亡的,但是,想到那些还没有来得及去爱的人,我就非常非常的害怕了。

人之将死,心理的变化真是非常非常的复杂。

第一,大概就是恐惧和忧虑。对死亡的恐惧,对家庭的忧虑,对父母对子女的忧虑。这些负面情感挥之不去。

第二,就是麻木了。一番打击过来,身体精神无法适应,对周围的一切都显得麻木不仁。很多人将去之时都是这个状态。住院的时候,对铺的老爷爷每天都在睡觉,一天睡上十几个小时。

第三,就是悔恨了。后悔没有来得及做的事情,没有来得及吃的东西,没来得及感谢的人,还有没有见到的恩人亲人。

第四,才是坦然。想明白了一切之后,觉得一切都坦然了,事实就是事实,接受着一切,过好最后的日子,每个人其实都一样,拥有的只有现在。“Futrue”只是一个摸不到的希望而已。

虽然说,我也不知道自己的死期是什么时候,但是总希望自己走的那一天能够潇洒的面对死亡。

亲爱的朋友们:

大家好,我在新加坡。

有些人可能已经知道这个信息了,有些人可能在想,到底是什么呢。我想,也是时候把这件事情告诉大家了。

2014年9月11日,我被诊断患有疑似血癌住院,住在病房里的,我是最年轻的一位。

(整个住院的经历可以说算是我人生中从起到落最大的一摔,我想我会整理出来另外一整篇文章来记录这个住院的经历的。)

血癌的确诊当然要等骨髓穿刺的结果,不过血液科的医生告诉我,从显微镜下观测的结果当然是百分之九十以上的准确度了,有大量不成熟的白细胞在血液当中。

2014年9月12日,我把消息告诉了父母,以及学校(当然理所应当的休学了)。然后,当天做了骨髓穿刺。

之后就确诊了Acute Leukemia,准确的说是AML with Muturation (M2)。其实AML是可以治疗的,M3型的痊愈率甚至高达90%……我要是得一个M3该多好啊。

好吧,之前有在微博上Po化疗最后一天加油的照片,鼓励自己要加油啦,我以为我的微博都没有人看的,可能大部分人都是从这里才知道我生病了吧,不过生得什么病,到底为什么得病都不知道吧。

第一,我生的病叫Acute Myeloid Leukemia,是白血病的一种,也叫血癌,一般国内是分为恶性肿瘤,也就是癌症,不过并不是绝症,只不过治好以后有一定几率会复发,根治只有通过骨髓移植,死亡的风险也就是在化疗的时候和骨髓移植的时候。

第二,为什么得病。关于癌症的成因,目前科学界还没有一个确定的定论。但是主流研究已经表明,环境,化学药品,辐射,抽烟,以及睡眠(根据最近的研究主要是与身体内的一种叫做褪黑素的东西有关),以及遗传基因和病毒入侵这些因素等都会导致癌症的发生率增加。单单白血病的来说,化学上的接触,特别是装修材料里的苯,甲醛,汽油里的苯,都是照成白血病的重要因素,有很大部分白血病的患者的住宅都在近期进行过装修;遗传因素当然也有,也包括病毒,抽烟对白血病没有任何影响,不过会显著增加患肺癌的几率;辐射的话,之前在广岛的调查有证实白血病患者的增加。

不过,关于患病的原因,当然是多种因素共同作用的结果。在日本,癌症被定义为【生活习惯病】,就是说这个病的发生,其实是和自己的各种生活习惯是有关系的。我们对于周围的环境能够做的改变不多,但是能够改变自己的生活习惯,养成一个良好的生活习惯可以有效的减少自己生这种病的概率。有些时候,感觉很遥远的事情,没想到就发生在自己身上了。

回想一下自己的生活习惯,最不乖的地方就是熬夜。我从小就是个夜猫子,更是喜欢上了一个喜欢夜猫子的行当,IT行业。

另一方面,虽然自己是一个比较随意的人,但是偏偏有完美主义的倾向,对于自己认定要做好的事情,就一定要追求极致。所以给自己的精神压力相当的大。

等到病好了以后,要过上新生活,至少绝对不妥协的事情就是熬夜了。然后就是要把更多的时间放在自己喜欢且随意的事情上面,多多出去旅行,摄影。继续弹自己的钢琴。然后少🐴一些代🐴。

好了,我给大家的不是什么好消息,但是也绝对不是什么坏消息,毕竟六个月之后,我又能像大家一样正常的生活了。

而且,很多时候都是塞翁失马,焉知非福。从改变我的生活习惯上来说,反倒是一个好消息。

而且,也给大家敲了一个警钟,身体的事情,不是你以为是什么样就是什么样的。像我,如果不是我去复查了一下,现在也许还在上课呢。于是我活蹦乱跳的进了医院,听到一个震惊的消息。所以如果你觉得身体已经是亚健康了,就要好好的去爱惜。

我现在身体状况好的时候,有坚持记每天的日记,希望以后能够分享给大家。

等我的好消息~~

爱你们的,东闻

P.S.我有收到好几封邮件,谢谢你们了,不过刚好运气不好的遇上一种叫Allopurinol的药物过敏,所以状态不太佳,在此先谢过,以后回复。

P.P.S请大家一定爱惜自己的身体。顺便,有空可以冥想一下,我周围的人大多都不信宗教,所以也推荐大家可以看看佛法什么的,对维持自己的心理和生理平衡很有帮助的。


PART I: EXPERIENCE

My life in Harbin Institute of Technology started on the September of 2010.

I chose to study Electric Engineering when I entered university. But as time goes by, I find that what I am more interested in is actually Computer Science.

The first semester of University does include a lot of study on math. I knew little about what Computer Science actually is at that time. At the end of the semester, I got the 1st place in my major and ranked 4th in my department (school) which has more than 200 students.

In 2011, the second semester of my freshman year, I took the course C programming language given by our university’s CS department. It was the first time that I knew anything about Computer Science. I spent much more time than other students on learning C programming Language and got 95/100 in the final.

This is the beginning of the story between Computer Science and me. I still thought Computer Science and Electric Engineering is about the same thing at that time.

In 2012, my sophomore year, I learned assembly language through MCS-51, and implemented a dialing function using MT8880 chip on it. In the second semester of my sophomore, I learned java by myself. When I grew into junior year, I completed an android app that can display a map on my mobile phone.

The more I learned about Electric Engineering and Computer Science, the more difference I found between them. I started to think about changing my major, but unfortunately we are not allowed to switch on subject as we grew into sophomores. However, I can still choose on how to spend my time. Much time are spent on learning computer science, while I still maintained my major’s rank between 20% ~ 30% .

Between Feb. 2013 ~ June. 2013, the second semester of my junior year. I got a chance to National Chiao Tung University in Taiwan as an exchange student in its department of computer science.

This was one of the precious times during my university life, as I could learn as a normal CS student for their courses without worrying about my own major’s grade. What’s better, NCTU is one of the best universities in Taiwan, and especially famous for its Electronics and Computer Science.

The course image processing in NCTU that I took is one worth mention, which is known for its hard projects. Four projects in one semester in total accounts for 80% of the final score, while the exam only makes up 20% of it. One of the most difficult projects is embedding data into a picture reversibly using difference expansion, about half of students withdrew this course because it is too hard to complete.

Indeed, algorithm in this project is not very complicated, but mistakes are easily made because of many boundary classification it involves. There was even an error related to boundary delimitation in one of the reference essay. I spent two weeks writing and testing the program. When the program finally worked successfully, I was as happy as winning a great award. I got to know with many concepts of image processing after the course.

I also taught myself Python that semester. And I undertook a project on automatic word filling in the summer holiday after the semester. I also learned Ruby on Rails systematically that holiday. After that, I have been building and maintaining a website with rails till now.

All in all, I learned much computer knowledge apart from courses of my original major. I learned Data structure, Formal language and Automata on the theoretical facet. On the other hand, I learned a lot of programming language, and learned how to use Linux system as well as Web developing. I created my own blog and I am maintaining a website.


PART II: Research Interest

What makes me the person I am? It is these experiences. This is the story between me and Computer Science.

“Computer scientist” and “hacker” now have special meaning for me. Different from other scientists, computer scientists are creators or crafters in some way. Their researches are generated from real world problems rather than bunches of obscure theories.

Diversity of the Computer Science and the culture inside of it are two features which attract me most.

Computer influences nearly all the modern sciences. In the domain of mathematics, the famous four-color theorem is proved on the basis of computer’s powerful computing ability. As for the field of linguistics, the introducing of computer made it possible for language analysis from statistical angle by counting the frequency of every single word. In the industrial world, computer increases the automation level of assembly lines which contributes greatly to productivity.

Real world problems are always complicated. Regarding computer science as a multi-layered building, we have mathematicians live in the bottom of the building. They are dedicated to all sorts of mathematical theories, who do really important works, and without them the building will be unable to build. In the middle part of the building live the “classical scientists” who study traditional problems such as algorithms, Turing machine and so on. As for others, they live on the very top of the building, they do really interesting coding, build bridges between computers and people, analyze data generated by Internet, realize AI which we have dreamed for such long time and hope to change our life eventually.

I once saw a sentence on the school’s website, ‘No other subject will open as many doors in the 21st Century, regardless of a student’s ultimate field of study or occupation, as computer science.’

Specifically, my research interest is Human computer interface. The important thing here is Human. I have mentioned in the beginning that most software is intended for human audience. It is very important for the machine and humans to have the ‘communication’. Human computer interface gives us a systematical way to study this - how to make the communication more efficiently and how to make it more natural for a better user experience.

On the one hand, I have passion for computer science, I am fancied by the great possibility of the renewing of technology which always brings us surprise. Hundred of years ago, it is beyond human’s imagination that information can be transmitted between Asia and America, but look at what we have achieved now, it can be easily done within a few millisecond. On the other hand, I value those warm human touches in this world, human help and pass encouragements to each other, these things are encouraging and makes you feel hopeful.

Human computer interface gives us the way to bring two opposite sides together. As for “computer” in “Human computer interface”, many subjects are involved, such as computer graphics, operation systems, programming languages, etc. While for its “human” side, industrial design, cognitive psychology and social science are involved. Due to it’s interdisciplinary feature, people of various backgrounds are together contributing to its development.

Further more, human computer interface has another feature: being cool. Traditional studies such as operating system, database, programming language, and pattern recognition are full of monotonous and tedious issues, while human computer interface has more visual stuffs. It also has cool branches like virtual reality and visual enhancement. Of course, it is based on those fundamental researches of other subjects. I guess these are reasons why I would like to spend 5 years and more to dive into this area.


PART III: Why I choose SUTD?

There is a “design” in SUTD from which shows it’s unique position.

There are many schools having a “technology” in their names, these schools may have outstanding research works, such as CIT, MIT etc. However, few engineering colleges have “design” in their names. SUTD is thus different from many universities. And this unique feature attracts me.

Design and Research are different. Design doesn’t have to be new, but it has to be good. Research doesn’t have to be good, but it has to be new. However, their ultimate goal seems to be the same: the best design uses new as well as good ideas, and the best research solves problems that are not only new, but worth solving. So ultimately design and research are aiming for the same destination, just approaching it from different directions.

Therefore, SUTD’s focus on both the creativeness and practicability attracts so many scholars and students.


PART IV: My Enthusiasm

In the culture of computer science, hackers are enthusiastic about new things. They work as intensely as play and they play as intensely as work. It is the same for me sometimes, the boundaries between “play”, “work”, “science” and “art” all tend to disappear, or to merge into a high-level creative playfulness.

This hacker culture is the second reason why computer science attracts me. This culture was born from a group of computer scientists. It’s history can be traced back to the first time-sharing computer tens of years ago. At that time, ARPAnet, the prototype of internet has just started. These experts who love to share formed the culture and it then get prospered along with the development of Internet.

There are several great features of hacker culture, that hackers considering work as play is one important feature of it. Besides, freedom and sharing were right inside of hacker culture when it was born, which attract me mostly.

Actually, this culture not only exist in the area of computer science. Its influence has been everywhere, say electronics and music. Actually, people who has achieved the highest levels of any subjects, has the similar spirits shared by this culture. The willingness to share, the enthusiasm in working and so on are all in this kind of spirits.

Though most hackers self-describe as programmers, they are very likely to be more than competent in several related skills. A hacker who’s a system administrator, on the other hand, is likely to be quite skilled at music or painting.

It is somehow weird to compare hackers to painters, many think there is no relevance between these two people. However, they do share many same features.

Painters(or any other artists) create works for people (no matter others or themselves) to appreciate. At this point, hackers do exactly the same thing, for all the software are made for people. Inspirations and enthusiasm are needed for both painters and hackers to create great works. If some one desire to program very well, he or she is required to undergo generous, painstaking, and repeated practice. This is similar for painters if they hope to command brilliant painting skills. Moreover, both painters and hacker are not afraid of failures for they deeply know that failure is where success comes.

The founder of Y-combinator(silicon valley’s biggest incubator) Paul Graham learned painting in Rhodes College of Art after he got his PhD in Havard. According to him, painters and hackers share the most similarities.

Same for me, I won’t be content with a narrow range of skills. I’m not a good painter, but I’m good at playing musical instrument. I know how to play Clarinet and I could play it well. I’m a piano player as well and I love the pieces by Joe Hisaishi.

I do this because I love it from inside my heart, and when I love it from heart I would not feel tired or hard, instead I am enjoying the best of my life.